Gwen Stefani’s divorce from Gavin Rossdale was already tough enough to deal with. But what made it harder was that their break-up took away a dream that Stefani spent her whole life fantasizing about.

Gwen Stefani and Gavin Rossdale divorced eight years ago, but the 55-year-old singer isn’t done talking about her 59-year-old ex. She’s now happily married to country superstar Blake Shelton and can’t stop gushing about how different their love is compared to the first time around with Rossdale.